Survival

Some of us are natural survivors, strong and resilient. Others, like me, find survival  soul-searching, mind-bending and back-breaking.  However, not going on is not an option.  I have spent countless sleepless nights wishing to fall into the starry sky. And here I am still. I did not jump. Not out of cowardice but because this is what I realized..

Wives lose husbands they have been married to for 40 years and more. My mother did, 3 years ago. Like rudderless ships, they flounder on. but they do not sink. They still light up at good meals and baby smells. Men become widowers after years of depending on a partner, a best-friend. They survive, scarred, scared. Life, relentlessly, goes on. People survive life changing accidents and disasters. Mothers live on after burying their children. I cannot think of anything harder than that. If this is possible, anything is possible. What am I complaining about?

Healthy human tissue typically takes six weeks to heal and scar. The scar tissue is just a fraction as strong as the original substance..but Time, the great healer, slowly remodels the scar and makes it tenacious and strong. It is not made of the original tissue..it is made of stronger substance..designed to hold better. Mother Nature knows exactly what she is doing. Over years, scars fade. Sometimes, they even surprise us.."Hey, you can barely see it!"

Taking inspiration from nature, I have decided to let myself heal. The scars will fade.